If a tree falls

My questions for mayoral candidates continues to be irrelevant, and boy, do I hunger for those halcyon days when I cared so much about city government.

Yes, if you’re wondering, it is awful. Yes, every day sucks. Yes, I’m still getting up, feeding and walking the dog, cleaning the (empty) house, and wondering what just happened to me, and who I am.

I have a lot to be thankful for. I know that. I am grateful, but the searing pain of loss is a constant thunderstorm over the dog putting her paw on my knee to see if I’m OK.

Many suggested I should write. So I did.

7 thoughts on “If a tree falls

  1. I am so sorry for your loss. I followed Heather for a long time online. I hope you and your family can find some peace.

  2. I’ve been wanting to thank you for what you shared about Heather at her memorial service. I’ve been drinking for 20 years. I’m the same age as her just last month. I feel there’s no hope most days to survive this. I was encouraged by hearing your words and am really trying to get sober. My question was the brain damage and 3-5 year span of time to heal, if you get an opportunity to share that information I would appreciate it.

  3. Sunshine, this was related to myself and Heather by the doctor at the clinic she went to. I’m not sure what citation to refer you to, but I can tell you the improvement I saw in Heather over the course of her 19 month sobriety was dramatic. I will never understand why she relapsed, other than her depression came back in force. I believe meditation, diet, and exercise are key to maintaining depression and alcoholism recovery. There is no cure for either, but there are ways to manage them.

    I wish you luck with your battle. Alcohol is a curse, and I sincerely hope you can beat it.

  4. I’m so sorry you are suffering so much. Heather was important in my life and I never even met her, so I can’t imagine how you must be feeling. I hope it’s getting easier every day.

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